~Ton's Thoughts on Thursday~

*Birth Control
...is of the devil! Ugh!!! I haven't been on BC in like 3 years, so I don't even remember what it's like. Until now. I got on the pill this past Sunday. My doctor recommended that I get on "seasonique" (sp???) which means I'll only have a period 3 times a year. I thought that was a fabulous idea. Not so much. It has made me a crazy person. I cry for no reason. I want to scream at everyone I come in contact with. I feel S-I-C-K all the time. No. Thank. You!!!!!!!!!!

*To work or not to work
(sidenote: this probably isn't a good day to have thoughts, because with my hormones out of whack, most of my thoughts have been negative) So anyway, I left my daughter crying this morning. Her first year of "school" has just ended and now she's staying with a sitter. She's not used to this one bit. She misses her teacher and her friends at school. So, this morning when I had to leave for work, she cried and asked me not to leave her! UgHhHHhhhhHHHhhH!!!!!! That is the absolute HARDEST thing for a mother to do. The whole way to Crystal Springs Awards Program, I cried. I felt so guilty. "Why am I working?"...."Why did I just leave my child at home crying?????"....."Why don't I just quit my job and stay at home?" Well, first of all...we can't financially afford for me NOT to work. And my job requires me to be full-time, so part-time is not an option right now. Secondly, my children are being taken care of. They just need to get used to this new routine. Thirdly, this is where God wants me. He has blessed me with an amazing job. So, if I must work then at least it's doing something I love to do with people I love to be around. Fourthly (is that a word?), I'm hormonal. Usually I wouldn't have been bothered so much by this, but today I was.

*Tired
I'm on an antibiotic that I have to take in the morning and at night. Here's the kicker....it makes me drowsy! Work+drowsiness+queeziness+hormones=ughhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

*Shout out to a couple co-workers
Susann-thanks for putting up with my ill mood today. Hopefully tomorrow I'll make our walk around campus a little more pleasant :)
DJ Brew-thanks for putting my ill mood into perspective.

*Breaking Free
So, I finally started the first session of this bible study on Tuesday. And that's as far as I've gotten. Go figure.


Ok, that's all I can come up with today. I'm not in the mood to think....especially not happy thoughts!


ill,
Tonya