Okay, I have been waiting for this day for about a month now!! The day when I could post on my blog, and let everyone know that WE ARE EXPECTING!!!!!!!!! There are a few reasons that we have waited til we reached the "12 week" mark to start telling people.
#1) For those of you who don't know....I miscarried back in September. It was one of the most devestating things I have ever gone through! Alot of the devestation came from having to tell the 89028908343 people that knew, that we had miscarried. We were so excited about having baby #2, and after we found out we had lost it, I just couldn't bear it! But let me tell you that God provided some of the most amazing people to comfort us!! People came out from everywhere to bring us food, mail us letters, or just come by and talk. It really did make coping with the pain a little easier. But nonetheless, it was so hard to lose our baby #2!
#2) Ok, so we waited after I had a full, normal cycle, and then decided to stop preventing the baby making process. We didn't really agree to start "trying", but we just decided we'd let God take control of if and when we ever got pregnant again. And....it happened sometime in December. I took an at home preg. test on December 30th, and it was positive! So, I went to the Dr the following week, and their preg. test was also positive! I was getting pretty excited by this point. So, we went in for our first ultrasound on January 7th (Abby's birthday). My doctor thought I was about 7 weeks along, so he felt like this ultrasound would show us how things were looking. I laid down on that bed, for the first time after laying there finding out I miscarried, and on the screen we saw nothing but a pregnancy sac!!! I immediately just started crying! WHY? WHY? WHY?, I asked?!!? Everyone automatically assumed that I miscarried, but the doctor wanted to run some blood tests just to make sure. So, for the next 5 days we ran 3 blood tests, and I sat at home still thinking that I had just miscarried for the 2nd time! On January 13th, I get a call from my doctor and he says, "Well, according to all your blood work, you definitley ARE pregnant!" I just didn't even know what to think right then?! Excitement....Confusion....Anxiety.....Scared!!! So, he wanted me to come in the next week for a 2nd ultrasound. When I went in, on January 19th, we saw the BABY...and the HEARTBEAT! Come to find out....I just wasn't as far along as they thought.
I just can't begin to describe the rollercoaster I've been on over the last 12 weeks. My emotions have been high and low, I've had the worst morning sickness (which I was just thankful for), my hormones were taking over, and there wasn't a second that went by that I didn't worry about the health of my baby! But you know....it was like God kept trying to assure me that everything was okay, but I just couldn't help but worry! I have felt extremley guilty for this doubt. But we went to the doctor this morning (Feb 23), and we saw my sweet baby....moving around, kicking, stretching, rolling over (literally), and with a heartrate of 165! It's like I heard God whisper in my ear...."What more assurance could I give you?" I laid on that bed, and cried tears of joy! There on the screen was my sweet baby that we have been praying for. We saw 2 arms, 2 legs, the sweet little nose, fingers, and toes! UNBELIEVABLE! I am still just in awe of how God has blessed us. Please keep us in your prayers. Please pray for a healthy & normal pregnancy. Pray for me, as I try to cast my worries on the Lord. And let's not forget about precious Abby...as we try to get her ready to be a big sister!
God is so good,
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Do yall ever get to the point where life just seems to wear you down? Wishing for 5 more minutes in the bed, sleep walking to the shower, thinking of how you have nothing cute to wear, eating breakfast in the car, working all day, get home, fix dinner, search for that last bit of energy you have to play with your toddler, trying to stay awake past 9:30 so you can have alone time with your husband...and on and on. Well, that's definitley where I am right now. In desperate need of a weekend getaway. And is God good or what?! Because He has provided that getaway for me and Michael....THIS WEEKEND!!! We're going to Perdido Key with 2 other couples. No kids, just pure adult time! Now, don't get me wrong...I am totally wrapped up in my precious 2 year old. But Michael and I decided from day 1 that making time for eachother was a MUST! We try to get away, "kidless", at least once a month. However, our last getaway was in December, so we're due for some time alone! Just time to fall in love all over again, eat a meal without chasing Abby around a restaurant, stay up late, be spontaneous...ha! I LOVE IT! So, today I will continue to fulfill my duties at work, make a Wal-Mart run, get everyone packed, and love on my sweet baby girl until it's time to leave. But starting tomorrow at noon, it'll be nothing but shopping, eating, resting, relaxing, movies, games, and beach! And then we'll return home on Sunday, totally refreshed....in our marriage, & as parents! So, be thinking about us this weekend...say a prayer for safe travel and safety for Abby as she will be in the care of her Mimi and Papaw. I'll try to take some pics, so I can post them along with a complete description of our ~weekend getaway~