WHEW!!!!....How come no one ever told me that being a mommy could be so rewarding, stressful, emotional, frustrating, and wonderful at the same time?!? The past 2 weeks have been harder than any "job" I could ever imagine....it's a shame we don't get paid (money), cause us moms would make a KILLIN'!! However; our rewards are so much more precious than any amount of money.
Over the past 2 weeks, Abby has had a stomach bug, a rash that's been diagnosed as some rare disease, a high fever, stomach pains, a bloody nose, and now congestion!!! It's probably all my fault, because I'm always bragging that Abby never gets sick.....I'll never make that claim again! But what makes the past 2 weeks so hard on me is not the fact that I've had to devote so much attention to her, take her to the doctor, make sure she's taking the proper medication, getting her to rest, or listening to her whine....it's the fact that I am worried SICK about her!! But that's just me....I worry about EVERYTHING....always have! It's defly not something I'm proud of. I actually feel guilty and convicted about it everyday. "Do not worry about anything; instead pray about everything"....that's what the Lord tells me to do. Why, Why, Why is that so hard for me to do?!? (prayer request!). But this is my precious baby girl we're talking about. I hateeeee to see her hurting. Especially when I have no idea what's going on, and of course always assume the absolute worst! But worrying about things has always been my biggest struggle throughout life, and I hope one day I'll get to the point in my spiritual life where I'll just learn to trust the Lord 100% in all areas of life. So, I guess this post has become a confession of my biggest weakness so that maybe somebody will help hold me accountable.
Well...I have scheduled Abby a doctor's appointment for this Thursday (April 2) at 10:30. We're trying a new doctor in McComb due to reasons I'll not discuss. I'm just wanting someone to check her out and make sure there is nothing serious going on in her little body. Would yall please pray that we'll get a good report on Thursday, and that if there is something wrong with her, that God would heal her? And maybe also pray for me.....that I'll stop worrying so much, and just trust that God is in control.
One more thing...I went to "my" doctor last Tuesday and got a good report. We were able to hear the heartbeat again, and it was 160! I go back in tomorrow for the genetic disorder testing, and then we go back April 13th to find out the sex!!!!!!!! AND....I started feeling some little flutters a couple days ago. It's one of the best feelings in the world :) Please continue to pray for a healthy pregnancy.
Thank yall so much for following my blog, and just letting me vent on a regular basis :) I will continue to keep yall updated throughout the next few doctor appointments.
a saved sinner,