Okay, I have been waiting for this day for about a month now!! The day when I could post on my blog, and let everyone know that WE ARE EXPECTING!!!!!!!!! There are a few reasons that we have waited til we reached the "12 week" mark to start telling people.
#1) For those of you who don't know....I miscarried back in September. It was one of the most devestating things I have ever gone through! Alot of the devestation came from having to tell the 89028908343 people that knew, that we had miscarried. We were so excited about having baby #2, and after we found out we had lost it, I just couldn't bear it! But let me tell you that God provided some of the most amazing people to comfort us!! People came out from everywhere to bring us food, mail us letters, or just come by and talk. It really did make coping with the pain a little easier. But nonetheless, it was so hard to lose our baby #2!
#2) Ok, so we waited after I had a full, normal cycle, and then decided to stop preventing the baby making process. We didn't really agree to start "trying", but we just decided we'd let God take control of if and when we ever got pregnant again. And....it happened sometime in December. I took an at home preg. test on December 30th, and it was positive! So, I went to the Dr the following week, and their preg. test was also positive! I was getting pretty excited by this point. So, we went in for our first ultrasound on January 7th (Abby's birthday). My doctor thought I was about 7 weeks along, so he felt like this ultrasound would show us how things were looking. I laid down on that bed, for the first time after laying there finding out I miscarried, and on the screen we saw nothing but a pregnancy sac!!! I immediately just started crying! WHY? WHY? WHY?, I asked?!!? Everyone automatically assumed that I miscarried, but the doctor wanted to run some blood tests just to make sure. So, for the next 5 days we ran 3 blood tests, and I sat at home still thinking that I had just miscarried for the 2nd time! On January 13th, I get a call from my doctor and he says, "Well, according to all your blood work, you definitley ARE pregnant!" I just didn't even know what to think right then?! Excitement....Confusion....Anxiety.....Scared!!! So, he wanted me to come in the next week for a 2nd ultrasound. When I went in, on January 19th, we saw the BABY...and the HEARTBEAT! Come to find out....I just wasn't as far along as they thought.
I just can't begin to describe the rollercoaster I've been on over the last 12 weeks. My emotions have been high and low, I've had the worst morning sickness (which I was just thankful for), my hormones were taking over, and there wasn't a second that went by that I didn't worry about the health of my baby! But you know....it was like God kept trying to assure me that everything was okay, but I just couldn't help but worry! I have felt extremley guilty for this doubt. But we went to the doctor this morning (Feb 23), and we saw my sweet baby....moving around, kicking, stretching, rolling over (literally), and with a heartrate of 165! It's like I heard God whisper in my ear...."What more assurance could I give you?" I laid on that bed, and cried tears of joy! There on the screen was my sweet baby that we have been praying for. We saw 2 arms, 2 legs, the sweet little nose, fingers, and toes! UNBELIEVABLE! I am still just in awe of how God has blessed us. Please keep us in your prayers. Please pray for a healthy & normal pregnancy. Pray for me, as I try to cast my worries on the Lord. And let's not forget about precious Abby...as we try to get her ready to be a big sister!
God is so good,